make-up smeared eyes

if yesterday morning with you was wonderful, then this morning's soccer was effing pathetic.

I realised how slow I am in street soccer today lol, the opposition just ran circles around me. My team lost like.. every game? :/ And that back pass.. wtf la, I'm really sorry about it Calvin, really my fault la... :S

Woke up today feeling very empty, like abit confused. Then the soccer thing just made everything worse... :( I feel like I need some time alone but school is just draining me each and every day and I can't take the constant pressure and workload... I wonder what you see in me at times, like I feel like I'm not contributing to this but you're doing everything. Honestly... I feel like shit. I mean... urghh.. I'm sorry if I'm letting school and everything else affect this but it is.

I don't think I know what I got myself into...

Sigh.. I'm just really sorry about this whole post, its just that there's so much going on in my mind that I can't not say what I feel cos its suffocating me. Just give me some time to cool down kay?

I wonder how,

I wonder why,

I wonder where they are,

the days we had,

the songs we sang together...

:/

so I say a little prayer, you're my dreams to take me there

over seas and coast to coast

Its been like... 3 and a 1/2 months since that accidental meeting huh? Look at where we are now, and I should be slapping myself for not treating you better...

OK, feeling slightly better now after letting it all out...

lyvm. :) sorry for making you bear with my constant whining and bitching about school! :X