Exhaust(ed)

I am tired. Like very much so. It doesn't feel like the holidays or after exams at all.

I don't know how I even got myself into this kinda thing that's so draining and tiring and conflicting.

There are my beliefs and ideals... and then this is me. And it's getting ever harder to balance between the both. The best thing is I don't even know how it all came about. It's like getting kicked in the teeth once, and then getting slapped for the next couple of months over and over and not being sure whether it's gonna end.

I am so so tired. But I'm caught here because it's not my call and I know damn well I have no say in it and I should have manned up and just backed off totally...

But I couldn't...