Faceless Enemy

I did not expect this, I've no idea what I should feel right now... cold, numb, hurt, lost. It's just abit too much, too unexpected, too rash.

But I'll believe for now that it'll work out. I don't know if I should but this once... I'll follow my fucking heart for all the drama it has brought me. I can't simply give this up just like this, especially when there is hope for us. And hope... it gives me strength.

I don't want to see you bear the burden of the fallout alone, the blame is after all partly mine. I could have walked out and disappeared long ago, I could have let my beliefs and ideals dictate my course of action but I stuck around too long, I cast my heart aside and tried not feel, to salvage your relationship with him. Even that has come to no end.

So here I sit in this stassis, kinda trapped and not knowing what to do. You can tell me to forget you and find someone else, but if my heart was that fickle I wouldn't even have bothered in the first place, I would have left you to your own fate. But that is not who I am.

Even to what you say is the end, I still have to respect your decision because it is the honourable thing a man should do, I don't like to pressure and coerce people because it makes me like him... no matter how it hurts and cuts so fucking deep.

Problematic? Not at all...